Hypocrisy: is the act of pretending that one has beliefs, opinions, virtues, feelings, qualities or standards that they do not actually have; this is usually done in order to mask their actual motives or feelings; falseness.

For example:
Preaching that one should strive to accomplish dreams, follow motivations and make the best of life, and yet they spend everyday of they're life sulking and wallowing in self-pity. ( This doesn't mean it's a crime to feel pain. All it means is try to put a little effort in. )

Interpret this how ever you like.

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So, in light of all the recent journal entries that have coming flying in from all directions, ( Ex. the one that claims a lack of faith turns you into a junkie, or the one that wasn't even written by the person who posted it. ) I've decided to give my two-scents. ( I know, I know, why can't I ever mind my own business. Simply put, I'm a bitch. )

First off, maybe I'm missing something, I really must be, because I'm failing to pick up much connection in the blog posts that are written 'in response to'. I guess it went from dreams to motivation and then someone else stepped in to talk about what motivates her, claiming without god she would probably get high and die in a gutter somewhere. Ok, so I guess I've established the connection, good to know.

Now, onto the subject matter. I'll start with the most recent.

"Well let me tell you, if I only believe in a fable, then what a nice fable it is. I'm pretty sure if my mom thought that, I'd probably has a couple of step dads and snorting some dangerous white powder that who knows what is in there. Maybe I'd be Gothic and demonic, sucking on a beer bottle, sleeping around, or end up most-likely, dead."

Really? Really? I mean, come on!! Give yourself some credit. You really think that the only reason you don't sleep around is because of your faith. Are you sure it's not because, oh I don't know.... Maybe you have self-respect!?
I don't doubt that religion has done good things for the world. I mean, there are people who turned to faith and found a whole new meaning in life. So, I'm not going to launch an assault on anyone's faith. Mostly because I'm still so unsure about my own and I respect your right to believe in what ever you think keeps you safe. If faith motivates you to lead your life a certain way and that's where you take comfort and there's how you end up happy, then by all means pray to who ever you want.

But, may I just point out one last thing?

'Now go be happy or get out of my life >'O!

Which was immediately followed by this statement:

This was suppose to be an artist and calm response to Hannah's journal...

Yeah, 'cuz, 'get out of my life' just screams calm.

Nice.

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Motivations are basically something that encourages us to get something done. They are something at the end of the race that we want and are determined to get.

...ect.

Motivations basically have control over what we do BUT motivations aren't necessarily a bad thing because otherwise nothing would ever get done.

I think you have decent grasp of the concept. Motivation governs our actions and level of want, need & interest. I wouldn't exactly call it 'something at the end of the race that we want and are determined to get'. I think more than anything it's what pushes us to get to the end of the race. Here, how about a nice shiny racecar metaphor? this should help.

So, as we all know: Life = Highway. (Thank you, Tom Cochrane!)

And in the words of Meatloaf 'then the soul is just a car.'

Everyone still with me?

So that would mean your goal in life-- goal, not motivation-- Is the finish line.

So if you/your car are working/driving towards your goal/finish-line then your motivation, whatever it may be, would the gas in your engine. What gets you there. But you have to fill up on gas, which isn't always easy given high gas prices and the state of the economy, but in the end if you don't fill the engine sometime, the car will eventually just stop. Who knows what happens then.

Feel free to quote me on that, by the way.

One thing I couldn't help but notice, is that you provided us with no clue as to your motivation or your goal.... Just saying.

So, whilst on the topic of motivation why not share mine?

I'm motivated by the people in my life. I'm motivated by all the people who crash and burn. I see things and I can separate what I want my life to look like, from the things I promised myself I would never become. Sometimes I'm motivated to do things just to say that I did. Sometimes I wanna go the distance just to turn around say, 'I made it.' Which in my mind, is motivation enough. I'm motivated by love. I'm motivated by the thought that somewhere out there, there's a person waiting and we're meant to be together. I believe in soulmates and I think that there's someone for everyone who's willing to let love in. The thought of being in love inspires me to learn to love myself.

My goals can change from day to day. I've said for a long time that my dream is to chase my dreams. That's because I still don't know what they all are. Short term goals are always easier to follow. Like, I know that before the end of the summer I want to finish a story of at least 10,000 words. It's a hell of a lot easier than saying I want to write a book before I'm 40. I wouldn't know where to start. And I would procrastinate. That's the problem with a lot of goals. They require you to think and to put the effort in. However, If I start by writing a short story and when it's finished I use it as a building block to write a novel then I might just reach that long term goal. After all, the first time Anne Rice wrote Interview With The Vampire it was only 17 pages long.

There are other types of goals in life. Goals that aren't as much about physically or mentally doing something, but rather more about emotion. Reaching a place in your where you can say that you are actually happy. Finding stability.

And then there are the dreams that we all have deep down in our heart of hearts. The things that we would never admit. Well, I wouldn't, anyway. At least not normally. Because I don't expect anyone who knows me to believe me. My dream is to grow up to happy. To fall in love and to get married. And I want children. More than anything else in my entire life, more than money, more than fame, I want to have a family one day. Not 'til I'm like 25 at least. But one day I will. And I want to live happily ever after, just like in the stories.

Everyone has dreams. I'm lucky enough to know mine well enough. I know the one thing that I want, even if nothing else works out for me. A happy family. But there are people who don't know what they want from life. And that's a hard position to be in. For example: Being in high school and not knowing what you want to do with your life. Career-wise or else-wise. I'd love to be a journalist. Of course there are other things I'd love to do, like pursue my passion for acting, but that's where other factors begin to come into play. Because, for all my motivation I lack the self-confidence necessary to be successful in that field. Not to mention that it's a near impossible field to succeed in.

Overall, both of the entries I've mention thus far made some good points. Even if the first one left me mildly offended and the latter of the two left me confused and uncertain as to what you were trying to get at.

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Alright, now were all the way back into last week and this of course brings me to what is-- to my knowledge-- The first journal entry posted, of this nature.

I don't know what inspired you to write this but it was certainly quite the read.

'To me, however, it means you shouldn't give up. Like, Don't stop believing that life can get better no matter how bad it may seem. And that you should always look at the good things that have happened and could happen.'

Encouraging statement, a bit cliché, but even still. This next bit caught me off guard.

'You have to look at the bright side of things.'

Wow. Really? Like, seriously!? How long have people been telling you that? I am glad to see that you're in a better mood--...
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Seriously?

"Don't Stop Believing".....
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Mood: Unhappy <---Seriously, is that like your default setting? Do you ever change that or are you seriously gunna try and tell me to look on the bright side when you yourself don't even seem to have that ability?

I look through the archives of your old journal entries and there is a serious lack of positivity I'll admit that there is a noteable number of a apparently happy days, but there's one that begins with the words 'I'm Happy' and is tagged as 'hopeless'. It's a small thing, really but it's contradictory, confusing and annoying.


'Not many people mention this one but you have life. Think about all of the people who've died because of abuse or natural causes. Or think about all the children killed in abortion. Like, the kid doesn't even have a chance to fight for itself. It doesn't have a choice whatsoever. It's all about what the mom-to-be thinks about it. If she wants the kid or not. But there are other options besides abortion. I'm not trying to make a big argument out of this, like for me I don't think people should have abortions.. no matter at what age, but thats just mine.'

First thing's first. What I am under the impression that you are trying to say is that you should chose life. Y'know, don't give up on life. Um, can I just point out one thing. 'Think about all of the people who've died because of abuse or natural causes.' The abuse thing I get, but natural causes? How do you fight that? It happens naturally, in other words, you don't have a choice.

Next, as you stated at the end of the paragraph 'I'm not trying to make a big arguement out of this... ...but thats just mine.' I respect your right to have an opinion, but you need to realize that when you right some thing in a public place ( Ex. deviantART . com ) what you write can and will be seen by someone, and when you touch on a sensitive subject, someone will say something.

Most of what you said, I agree with. If you wouldn't murder and infant in it's cradle, then what makes you think it's ok to murder the child before it even gets that far.

However, I do have to disagree with one part of your argument. Age. Now, I myself could never do it. I don't believe abortion is an option for me at any time in my life. However, there are girls in situations that really have no other option. And as much I am opposed to abortion as a personal choice, I believe that if a person can live with them selves having done it, and if they were not able to keep the child safe and well then they can make the choice. But they have to live with it forever.

Now, back on topic.

Indeed.

You have so many privileges it's almost unbelievable. You may not think this but you have every inch of control of your life. You control it in every way.

...Okay, I'm interested to find out exactly how your mind works.. Continue...

I know that parents and authorities tell us we should do this, be this, eat this; a lot like the media, but I'll get into that some other time; but you decide whether to listen to them or not. You choose what you do, an example of this would be if your parents or gaurdian cooked you spaghetti for dinner. You could choose to eat it or you could ask them if there's anything else you could eat, or if they won't cook anything else, make yourself something (If you know how to cook, that is.)

Ok, so your telling me, that if my father slaves over a hot stove for 2 hours to make dinner for me and my siblings so that we can have food in our stomachs but I don't like spaghetti (which I don't), that I should refuse to eat it. That I should get up and make something else. Tell me, how many times have you tried this? And, better question, how often does it work?

Y'see, there's this thing called respect, and generally it's considered (if I may borrow a phrase from a certain Mme. Morell) lack of respect, to just say 'no, I'd rather tuna.' (Well, that and I now have an aversion to tuna)

You went on to discuss opportunity & privileges.

You did make a good point, and every statement here is NOT an attack on you, rather I'm using your statements as my aforementioned 'building blocks.'

I think when people say opportunity, for the most part they mean school and work and mostly just way to further yourself, in general. And yeah, it's good that I live in a country where I'm free to go to school and pursue a career and all that wonderful, wonderful stuff. But that's not my whole life. It can't be. There has to be something more. And I don't mean something big, like money and fast cars or pretty girls and fame. I mean the little things. All the things that make me smile. Television, for example. Being able to stay up 'til 4AM everyday. Sitting on a wooden floor wrapped in a blanket watching House. Trying not to laugh too loud so that I don't wake my sister. Then getting woken up at 10AM that morning and no matter how tired, I do it all over again the next night.

The little things and the memories are what makes life what it is. And I think that 20 years from now, when I look back and think of myself, up at four o'clock wasting my nights away instead of trying to boost my IQ or polishing up my resume, I honestly don't think I'll have any regrets.

You did acknowledge what I mentioned here earlier, 'not the happiest person.' Honesty's a virtue, I guess. So it's good that you're still alive and sane and all those things essential to a good, happy life. I know you've been through a lot of shit but you seem to have turned out just fine.

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This a response to everything that's been posted recently.


_-J7V